Hump Day

Everything becomes a little different as soon as it is spoken out loud.

-Herman Hesse

In relationships, communication can either make or break the whole shabang.  The problem is, many times I’m scared to voice what I’m thinking in leiu of the possiblity of hurting Chris. I don’t really know how to tell him when I need a bit of time away, not because of anything he’s done, but because I genuinely just want to be by myself. He always seems to take it like he’s done something wrong, and that’s never the case.

With that said, communication also has an integral part of the bedroom experience. How do you really expose your desires candidly and avoid embarassment? It’s just really uncomfortable to me, I guess mainly because I feel like the man kind of “has his way” with the woman. I think that’s why I always liked chat rooms. Total anonymity to fully exposing yourself, without the risk of embarassment or judgement.

How can one inject that feeling of freedom into their own life?

On a lighter note: The world would be a much better place with more masturbation.

 

Must Remember…

I like the idea of throwing in the towel when it comes to beer, liquor, and ciggarettes. Get back to those organic roots ya know? Wine, ganja, fresh food, fruits…. To me it seems as though you’d just feel better.

I also like the idea of getting my finances in order by paying off debt, saving money, budgeting, etc.  I bet being debt free is one of the most freeing feelings in the world. You could travel, invest… I mean there are so many possibilties when you’re financially stable.

But how do you change years of bad habits? I’m a smoking, drinking, spendaholic. It seems like as far as habits go, I’m an instant gratification kind of gal. And the long road to self-betterment just seems so daunting.

I’ve also been thinking about practicing my Spanish. I used to be really good at communicating properly in Espanol. Photography also interests me, as well as sewing… I’ve been reading more, but I really feel like I need a hobby. 

When it comes down to it, I really think that by eliminating the negative things in life, I can do myself a favor. And always remember to observe then participate. I especially need to learn how to really hold my tongue.

With that said, everything is peachy on the homefront. Got a book about sex, and am anxious to try some new things. Shake up the ol’ bedroom a bit. hehehe. Also, have found out that the toothpaste on a zit overnight is a true miracle worker.

The season finale of Project Runway is tonight. I best be goin’.