Everything becomes a little different as soon as it is spoken out loud.

-Herman Hesse

In relationships, communication can either make or break the whole shabang.  The problem is, many times I’m scared to voice what I’m thinking in leiu of the possiblity of hurting Chris. I don’t really know how to tell him when I need a bit of time away, not because of anything he’s done, but because I genuinely just want to be by myself. He always seems to take it like he’s done something wrong, and that’s never the case.

With that said, communication also has an integral part of the bedroom experience. How do you really expose your desires candidly and avoid embarassment? It’s just really uncomfortable to me, I guess mainly because I feel like the man kind of “has his way” with the woman. I think that’s why I always liked chat rooms. Total anonymity to fully exposing yourself, without the risk of embarassment or judgement.

How can one inject that feeling of freedom into their own life?

On a lighter note: The world would be a much better place with more masturbation.

When it comes to relationships, is it possible to alter the course of the whole thing with 2 words?  And with that said, what if you use those same 2 words at least 45 times a day?

I guess it’s all a matter of who says it to you.

As far as “Fuck You” goes… never saying it again.

I don’t know if it’s horomones, me being sensitive, some underlying thing I’m unaware of, whatever… It just keeps ringing in my ears. I’d love to have a beautiful day, and hang out, and be everything we’ve been and I hope will be again, but it’s like everytime I look his way, I can just picture him saying it.

I think he thinks I’m putting him on a guilt trip, and I’m not, it’s genuinely just kinda difficult to exert the energy to smile right now.

I feel like it cracked my heart a little.

Maybe they have some  spackle for that.